This is not My Dream

| I never imagine that I would be a part of this institute. Even once in my wildest head, I've never think that I would be one of the college student of this place.

I don't even know, is it will be the place where I graduated in the future. There's so much thing in my head. Thinking that this is not my dream. This is not what I want. This is not what I've been planning for. 

There's a moment where I feel that the world seem so much unfair for me. Then I realize, there's something you cannot against in this world. It's fate, destiny. Something that is beyond human control.

From this, I learn another way about how to accept qadr. It's hard at first. Then I remembered, I've been praying for a very long time, I've given a lot of effort to achive what I really wanna be in the future. When I've doing all of that, every result I got in the end, is the best result for me. For my future. 

Maybe I will get what I really want next time, not today. Or maybe, I will never get what I want in any kind of time. But surely I know, this is the best destiny that Allah has given for me. | Aug'18

location : IAIN PALANGKA RAYA, PBAK 2018